Day 229.

I am listening to the piano cover of my heart will go on and in the fetal position imagining my childhood. I hate how much it hurts to remember when everything was so simple and you didn’t have to choose over which parent to love more. Thinking about my aunts amazing basement, and really everything flashing through my head. The only other time I get that feeling of how everything used to be is when I’m with you. I feel like I’ve known you my whole life and it’s just so strange you’ve come into it just now. You bring me joy and comfort and pure bliss. I think about how important you are to me, you are the greatest love I’ve ever had and I could not be more thankful that you love me back. I can’t stop picturing us now wearing squirrel costumes for some reason, it is unreal. Thank you for making me laugh and laughing at my jokes with me. I love you. I feel so much better already, it’s like I just talked to you and I feel like ou heard me and it literally calmed me down. I’ll see you soon. Xoxo

"Find someone who makes you realize three things: one, that home is not a place, but a feeling. Two, that time is not measured by a clock, but by moments. And three, that heartbeats are not heard, but felt and shared."

(via foreverphuong)

Day one five nine.

Do you ever fear something so much only to realize you’re scared of the wrong thing? From the day I met you, I never wanted to lose you. You are everything and more to me, I don’t think I can lose you without losing a very large part of myself. Within the last two days, past guys have been hitting on me and I’ll admit it, I loved the attention. It was nice and different, but then I realized I love your compliments more than their pick up lines. I love spending the day laughing with you more than spending a meaningless night with someone else. You are what lights up my day and what brightens up my night. What we are is worth so much more than anything I’ve had with anyone else. I was always scared that you were going to change your mind and walk away, but every day you prove me wrong. I’m not afraid of you leaving; I’m afraid of myself. You are my sun and moon, and I will wake up to you and fall asleep to you for as long as you’ll have me. I love you my darling, much more than you know.

Day one hundred and twenty.

There are no words for me to describe how I feel whenever you leave, so the thought of you not being around anymore  brings a nauseating feeling in the pit of my stomach. You were right, I did see myself outside of my own body. I saw what we could be, it brings tears to my eyes knowing I might not get to keep you forever. I told you that I want to give you my time,and  I know you might not even want it. I love you,I’m having a hard time accepting it because I am so scared about how hard it will be to live without you. For now, you are mine and I cannot wait to see your beautiful face again so soon.